2月 2012
26件の投稿
i feel so isolated that the only people who are talking back to me live on the other side of the world and are anonymous. even my boyfriend won’t speak to me. there is something inherently wrong here. right now japanese feels like the only language that i can actually communicate in. english warrants no replies.
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i really think i'm going to marry eita.
lately i’ve been watching everything he’s appeared in, he’s so adorably excellent.
I think that I would also like to carry out...
i’m making penpals with strange japanese people because i have way too much time on my hands and i feel like extending my world. i probably shouldn’t laugh at their english because i’m sure my japanese is equally as horrid. or at least, awkward. i will forever be stuck in that stage of speaking japanese like a joshi koukousei because that’s the point of my life where my...
we’re just too different we’re just too different we’re just too different we’re just too different we’re just too different we’re just too different we’re just too different we’re just too different we’re just too different we’re just too different we’re just too different we’re just too different we’re just too...
tell me, what are you passionate about?
i can see the end in sight, but i can’t bring myself to let go completely. i’m not sure how, honestly. i usually depend on others to break away first.
while i'm reminiscing
this was one of the best nights of 2010.
back when i was a pokemon trainer
i have such an impressive bruise from la dispute (i saw la dispute last night, it was amazing. and tomorrow night i will see them again.)
suzuki night market yo
watching
according to chekhov, once a gun appears in a story it has to be fired.
it's raining so much that everything is white
i love this weather, i really do. sitting here in my bathers and the street is flooding down the hill
today was the best day so far this year
waking up next to him, five hours of karaoke and the suzuki night market to say the least. somehow all of my problems have been erased in the past 24 hours. i feel so ridiculously content.
somehow he manages to always disappoint me
happy valentine’s day? i’m going into the city to eat up a storm with my best friends. romantic and no chocolates or flowers in sight.
i wish i was more like myself
when did i become so submissive to everything? i need to rectify this. i don’t feel like myself anymore; it’s like i’m too tired to fight at all. my personality at work is so unlike who i really am that it scares me. i need to quit before it consumes me. why can’t i find a job that isn’t detrimental to my wellbeing? la porchetta had me an emotional mess. moods is...
丁度１年間
帰ってから、丁度１年間。不思議だね。戻りたいなぁ、日本へ。
待ってください。
i kept smashing things -
work today was painful
let me correct myself; work is ALWAYS painful.
waiting waiting it seems that my entire life consists of waiting
i miss japan. i miss the isolation of japan, i miss being the only foreigner for miles, i miss the quirkiness and the snowfall in winter, i miss the ridiculous fashion and the cobbled streets and the efficient trains and the curious glances. i miss the ordered chaos, the pachinko parlours and purikura game arcades, the misused engrish and the billboards. i miss the solitude, the way people keep...
obviously i don't know what to do with myself...
third time writing you a letter, getting darker. i’m getting worse, and worse
i am slowly becoming the most anti-social person...
i don’t really go out, and when i do i hang out with my own company; to the extent where lately i’ve been going to shows by myself and on occasions talking to myself (in japanese, so i suppose it lessens the insanity). my behaviour is becoming increasingly reclusive. never before has my own company been so enticing; people in general make me tired.
the worry, the wonder, the...
i just want to run away to scandinavia.
when i have money, i will pack my bag and venture to unknown lands far away.
i really need to make a list of all of the places i wish to see in the world, because last week mum was asking me where i wanted to go on holiday this winter and i couldn’t answer. the two places that spring to mind instantly are peru or hawaii. family holidays are ridiculous. at this rate we won’t be going...
road trip
we managed to drive from sydney to melbourne this morning (5am start) in under 10 hours (excluding stops, of course. plus lunch and breakfast it took about 1.5 hours more). i will admit, i was slightly terrified of skidding when the rain started. an amazing five days had, of living out of a car, putting up the tent in a different place every night, alternating between eating out and attempting to...