12月 2011
15件の投稿
2011: the year that i grew up
writing a reflection of the year that has passed. exactly a year ago, i recall sitting at the top of arashi park with mai and takafumi in tama, tokyo, the three of us pen to paper reflecting. after that, we went to the onsen and mai and i had intense conversations in japanese about twenty ten, twenty eleven, the future and it’s possiblities, outside in the cold winter air naked in the hot...
all we seem to do is go around in circles but
this morning i was sitting next to him on his bed watching him sleep (he wanted me to wake him up by 11) and just sitting there, i was so akldhskfhdsfhdjkkfhd you’re amazing even when you’re asleep.
i don’t know what this is, but i don’t want it to end
so, nye’s going to be a lonely night by the pool it seems. why do all of my friends have separate plans that don’t involve me? and even when they extend the invitation to me, it’s obvious that i wouldn’t fit in. i don’t know these people. where are my friends? where is my life, more like it.
there's this colour that i love, and it's as deep...
What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
everything legally.
Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i make halfhearted ones, but the real resolutions occur naturally in time.
Did anyone close to you give birth?
no.
Did anyone close to you die?
close by proximity, not by relationship. thank god.
What countries did you visit?
i was in japan until...
now i’m unconsciously trying to ruin everything i’ve made for myself. it’s like i do this things and the voice inside my head is telling me to stop, meagan, you’re fucking everything up and i just continue. completely aware of the repercussions but unable to stop myself. it’s like i can’t help but sabotage my own happiness.
this year started in the most amazing way - in...
and it’s ending on such a high note.
twenty eleven, you held so much promise. you were amazing, but kind of hit a low point around the middle. but it’s okay, the past month has been excellent. i’m so excited for the future.
merry.
it’s quite strange how in the quiet evening of christmas, i always end up reflecting on past times. somehow someone from my past has come to mind; triggered by a long lost conversation with a mutual friend, and nights that i’d forgotten are resurfacing, faces that i haven’t thought about in months. it was only about six months ago but i’m struck now by how excellent all...
もうすぐクリスマスなんだけどそのクリスマス気分は出ないーの。なんでかな。i feel as though my life is a mess with the way that everything is left unfinished, unplanned and unregulated. sometimes everything is too chill for me to be able to deal with to the point where i may explode. 好きなんですけど、たまに好きっていうか。。それだけで足りるんですか？i let you get away with so much because you’re you, but how long will that last? i’m by nature a neurotic...
the most amazing song
うまく届かないんだ~
頑張ろう岩手！
nine months have passed and otsuchi still has a long way to go.
taking photos out of a moving bus window is no fun. sorry about the horrendous quality.
kaimai-shi, otsuchi-cho. they were ghost towns....
nine months have past and they’ve cleaned up the mess but have barely started rebuilding. about 200 people in otsuchi are still living in temporary housing. kamai-shi has been completely abandoned. buildings still stand, albeit quite damaged, as if people fled after the tsunami and never came back. it’s quite scary how far the tsunami reached. i can’t even begin to imagine the...
this past week has been the most amazing,...
i can honestly say it’s one of the best things i’ve ever done.
visiting otsuchi-cho was definitely one of the more affective experiences. みんなの頑張る態度、前向きに生きて進む努力が本当に感動した。偉いよね、日本人って。
so it's forecast to be a maximum of zero degrees...
so excited.
it just means that i’m going to have to pack more clothes.